He's taught me within angles of spirituality, my emotions, gratefulness, and so much more. This month, however, God's taught me about my lack of proper perspective. Specifically when it comes to protecting this little heart of mine (and others, too). Today, Pastor Kris said, "It's hard to convince people that Jesus is Lord if you are not pursuing a life of holiness yourself." In recent months, I've approached my future love life as a "whirlwind happenstance" of sorts. This is so not me, so not my standards, and everything against what I hope God has been preparing me for: a future mate encompassed within a great man, with great character. And nothing less. I've found holiness to take a backseat, and my splendid little notions poised as driver. I won't lie, it feels good to be loved. But what a tragedy to use someone else's affections as your crutch. As much as I loathe to admit it, I think that I might have just been afraid of being alone.
But why must I be afraid? How great is my God! How wonderful to know Christ, and to say with every cell of my being, You are Enough! Lord, I am sorry. And Lord, would you teach me to be satisfied with even just a sliver of you?
