The High Road.

Life is made up of two choices. The high road, or the broad sweeping current in which most of the world flows. I've been on that current for much of my life. Yes the water is sweet. The foliage up above is breathtaking. Yet I know with all my heart that its not where I'm supposed to be.

I've learned lately that we can believe wholeheartedly that we are close to God, yet still be very far from him. As Pastor Pat said a couple of Sundays ago... "We've missed the point."  A quick glance at how I'm so apt to isolate myself from the people that hurt me reveals it all too well. The truth is, when we truly love God, we love his people too. And this love extends to our enemies. We push through the daggers of hurt and we forgive. How could I be so senseless to be in a faith rooted in forgiveness, when I repay pain with pain?

God's shaken me of my stubborn ways yet again. Lifted me back up and placed me back upon that fork in the road. I will not be a statistic. I will not claim to be a "Christian" yet continue to make comfortable, selfish, decisions and live as if I've never experienced grace. Give me strength, give me strength, Jesus. As I re-enter this trek towards making your name shine, every part of me wants to hop back on that river. But I just can't do it anymore. I just can't.

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There's a song that I love, posed for this time of year but I love it year round. I think it captures the essence of true humility. This song just quiets me, because I know of my own pride & my false humility. To think, the King of all Kings, who deserved a glorious show..came like a "winter snow." Here I am, wronged & hurt, wanting to beat my fists, unleash my wrath, and sweep in like an angry hurricane.

ah. Where would I be without grace?


"Winter Snow" by Audrey Assad